Last night a really dear friend of mine told me that Perception becomes a person's reality...Usually I would have been like that is so true and then moved on from the statement. But Since I have been friends with them for only a brief moment. I have come to learn that there is always something deeper to what they are saying. Nothing is ever really surface with them. So I slept on it and then thought some more on it. Only because one of my characteristics is to be extreme. Whether it is in thinking or buying groceries. So In my over thinking I had to fully understand what perception means...So I looked it up of course. peception then lead me to the word perceive. Perceive: To obtain awarness or understanding of. Now just for kicks. I know you know what reality means. but im going to give you the definition anyway. Reality: The quality or state of being real. A real event , enity, or state of affairs. In translation for the slower thinking people such as myself sometime...Perception becomes a person's reality - To become aware of a person's Truth. I know I spoke on living your truth already. I think when I got that bit of information. I became AWARE of other peoples truths. Which plays a very important part of living your truth. In order to do this you have to be able to accept the people that God has blessed you with. You have to respect the thing that they are trying to accomplish for theirselves as well as yours. You have to be a Northern Star. Be Encouraging and Understanding. Sometimes we get so caught up in our own world that we don't realize that we aren't paying attention to the people who helped us along the way. Then we are perceived to be uncaring, dettached, or emotionally and physically unavailble. I know for a fact that the people you care about you never want them to perceive you to be that way. Sometime circumstances make you that way. Which it then turns into reality. Understanding plays a major role in this play. So if you have some friends that you just don't understand why they are doing what they do. Don't hold it against them. Find out if it is anything you could do to understand what they are going thru. So there reality can become apart of your reality. You have to love them in order to understand them. So I must work on my Attitude and how I treat the people I come in contact with....
LIFETIME ATTITUDE GOAL: IS TO THINK POSTIVE IN EVERYTHING THAT I DO. RIGHT ALL WRONGS. TAKE ON A SERVICE MENTALITY. HOLD MYSELF ACCOUNTABLE FOR MY ACTIONS. BE MORE UNDERSTANDING. DEVELOP A MORE FOCUSED MINDSET. STOP TAKING THINGS SO PERSONAL.
Love,
Aquelle
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Sunday, March 20, 2011
WONDERING MIND
WONDERING MIND....
Wondering mind what direction are you goin in.
Why is it so hard to follow you in this maze like den.
Going right or left. no go left then right.
I keep coming to all of these dead ends.
I need some of this madness to end.
Wait a minute. Take a minute.
Now take flight.
There goes my Light. I can see it.
I just might....Go Right.
Love,
Aquelle
Wondering mind what direction are you goin in.
Why is it so hard to follow you in this maze like den.
Going right or left. no go left then right.
I keep coming to all of these dead ends.
I need some of this madness to end.
Wait a minute. Take a minute.
Now take flight.
There goes my Light. I can see it.
I just might....Go Right.
Love,
Aquelle
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
NECESSARY LOSS...
YEAR TO DATE: MARCH 15,2010 -MARCH 15,2011
I was sitting in my brand new apartment. The first place on my own since my divorce. I laid in my bed that day and cried...I cried so hard that day. for 1. Because I missed my Daddy so BAD. I ached all over my body. I knew that no matter how much I longed for him. He would not be there to tell me his magical words "ABRACADABRA"..lol..yes he would actually say that when I thought my world was coming to and end...It was his way of saying that Baby, there really isn't no magic words. you just have to pick yourself up and keep moving til you can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I couldn't see that light a year ago. 2. All of a sudden ALL of my friends including my best friend. was no where to be found. I was like am I about to go thru this alone. with no one to talk to. I was HURTING so bad. I needed someone to talk to. Someone to cry to. I wanted to have a Big Pity Party. There was no one there. I lost a friend 3. I had no desire to go in to work. I didn't even want to go to my own Boutique. I didn't want to do FASHION anymore. I didn't want to sew, look a FASHION magazines, or EVEN talk about FASHION. I lost my Boutique 4. I attached myself to all the wrong type of Men. Since my friends wasn't around.You know a man will be around. Cause they want something from you and since I was so vulnerable. I attracted the ones that played on my vurnablity. SMH...Bad Move. I lost all of those Men 5. I spent a ridiculous amount of money. Shopping made me feel good. To make me feel better on my supa lonely days. I shopped. I shopped alot. My apartment was Magnificent. My closet Sick. My shoe game is DOPE. I lost my apartment and alot of my Money. . Now you wonder how is all of that NECESSARY LOSS....
*THE BOOK OF JOB*
I read that book in the bible. I have read it before but didn't understand it fully. You see JOB was a stand up type of guy and God love him most. But Satan came before God and said "Does JOB fear nothing? Have you not put on hedge around him and his household and everything he has? You have blessed the work of his hands, so that his flocks and herds are spread throughout the land. But stretch out your hand and strike everything he has, and he will surely curse you." So the LORD said " Very well, then, everything he has is in your hands, but on the man himself do not lay a finger. JOB 1:8-12. Then I read further. Satan took everything as well as made him Ill. But Job didn't curse God. Since Job loved the lord with all of his heart and Proved to the Lord that no matter what he was going thru he was going to still worship and love his Heavenly Father. God Blessed That latter part of JOB's life more than the first. JOB 42:12. So I look at all of the things that I have LOSS over the years.I took noticed how Necessary it was for me to experienced that loss. 1. My daddy did die. I like to hope that the Lord had given him his mansion and His time was up. I needed to grow up, Take the Life Lessons that my daddy taught me. Never give up on my dreams, Never settle for second best because I am number 1. always strive to be better. I'm stronger than I give my self credit. Look forward and never backward. 2. My friends are Human and they go thru the same Human experiences just different type of situations but they are all the same. Sometimes You have to walk alone in order to reach the Level of Godly Success. I got use to not always having someone to run to when things got bad. I ran to My Lord. I don't feel so Lonely anymore. He sent special people in my life for this reason. To let me know that I wasn't forgotten. 3. He sent people to let me know how talented I was and that My talent was need and useful. He opened Doors for me to Show my talent. 4. I did finally meet someone who is very special and they treated me like I wanted to be treated. They let me know that I am powerful and a shining STAR. They wasn't around long but he did show me that My HOPEFUL love is out there waiting on me. When he thinks I am truly ready to receive that Type of Love. It going to be so AWESOME. 5. He trusted me with a little money and yes I spent it recklessly. But I did do some wonderful things with alot of it to. So I planted good seed like JOB. and like he promised I will be taken care of. It might not be financial but that's OK. So you see some loss is necessary so that you can humble yourself. Prepare you for a greater Blessing. He even has you experience Loss just to test you to see if you was willing to lay it all down for his greater cause. So that he can place you to do Something bigger. Bigger than you can ever imagine. No matter how down I get from being with out person,place or things. I will always Know that My Loss was Necessary for God Big Plan. What is for me is for Me and Not even Satan can have it.
Love,
Aquelle
I was sitting in my brand new apartment. The first place on my own since my divorce. I laid in my bed that day and cried...I cried so hard that day. for 1. Because I missed my Daddy so BAD. I ached all over my body. I knew that no matter how much I longed for him. He would not be there to tell me his magical words "ABRACADABRA"..lol..yes he would actually say that when I thought my world was coming to and end...It was his way of saying that Baby, there really isn't no magic words. you just have to pick yourself up and keep moving til you can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I couldn't see that light a year ago. 2. All of a sudden ALL of my friends including my best friend. was no where to be found. I was like am I about to go thru this alone. with no one to talk to. I was HURTING so bad. I needed someone to talk to. Someone to cry to. I wanted to have a Big Pity Party. There was no one there. I lost a friend 3. I had no desire to go in to work. I didn't even want to go to my own Boutique. I didn't want to do FASHION anymore. I didn't want to sew, look a FASHION magazines, or EVEN talk about FASHION. I lost my Boutique 4. I attached myself to all the wrong type of Men. Since my friends wasn't around.You know a man will be around. Cause they want something from you and since I was so vulnerable. I attracted the ones that played on my vurnablity. SMH...Bad Move. I lost all of those Men 5. I spent a ridiculous amount of money. Shopping made me feel good. To make me feel better on my supa lonely days. I shopped. I shopped alot. My apartment was Magnificent. My closet Sick. My shoe game is DOPE. I lost my apartment and alot of my Money. . Now you wonder how is all of that NECESSARY LOSS....
*THE BOOK OF JOB*
I read that book in the bible. I have read it before but didn't understand it fully. You see JOB was a stand up type of guy and God love him most. But Satan came before God and said "Does JOB fear nothing? Have you not put on hedge around him and his household and everything he has? You have blessed the work of his hands, so that his flocks and herds are spread throughout the land. But stretch out your hand and strike everything he has, and he will surely curse you." So the LORD said " Very well, then, everything he has is in your hands, but on the man himself do not lay a finger. JOB 1:8-12. Then I read further. Satan took everything as well as made him Ill. But Job didn't curse God. Since Job loved the lord with all of his heart and Proved to the Lord that no matter what he was going thru he was going to still worship and love his Heavenly Father. God Blessed That latter part of JOB's life more than the first. JOB 42:12. So I look at all of the things that I have LOSS over the years.I took noticed how Necessary it was for me to experienced that loss. 1. My daddy did die. I like to hope that the Lord had given him his mansion and His time was up. I needed to grow up, Take the Life Lessons that my daddy taught me. Never give up on my dreams, Never settle for second best because I am number 1. always strive to be better. I'm stronger than I give my self credit. Look forward and never backward. 2. My friends are Human and they go thru the same Human experiences just different type of situations but they are all the same. Sometimes You have to walk alone in order to reach the Level of Godly Success. I got use to not always having someone to run to when things got bad. I ran to My Lord. I don't feel so Lonely anymore. He sent special people in my life for this reason. To let me know that I wasn't forgotten. 3. He sent people to let me know how talented I was and that My talent was need and useful. He opened Doors for me to Show my talent. 4. I did finally meet someone who is very special and they treated me like I wanted to be treated. They let me know that I am powerful and a shining STAR. They wasn't around long but he did show me that My HOPEFUL love is out there waiting on me. When he thinks I am truly ready to receive that Type of Love. It going to be so AWESOME. 5. He trusted me with a little money and yes I spent it recklessly. But I did do some wonderful things with alot of it to. So I planted good seed like JOB. and like he promised I will be taken care of. It might not be financial but that's OK. So you see some loss is necessary so that you can humble yourself. Prepare you for a greater Blessing. He even has you experience Loss just to test you to see if you was willing to lay it all down for his greater cause. So that he can place you to do Something bigger. Bigger than you can ever imagine. No matter how down I get from being with out person,place or things. I will always Know that My Loss was Necessary for God Big Plan. What is for me is for Me and Not even Satan can have it.
Love,
Aquelle
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
LIVING My Truth...Fashionably
I started out with my normal routine of praying and mediating. I then jump out of bed to get this fashionable day started. Im so excited. This day cause for the special perfume. The one that energizes My world. I have two photo shoots in one day. One of the shoots I get to do all by myself. I got to work with a wonderful crew. Photographer was on point. He really helped get my vision across. The make-up artist had my girl Sydney looking like Tyra Banks...lol ok, so im stretching it alittle but Hey this was my day. No hairstylist but that didn't stop me. I did the Hair, She was rockin those spiral curls. Did a conference call to make sure the other shoot was following the concept. Just a little drama at first but once I finshed the Bag shoot I high tailed it across town to the 2nd shoot...Tamura to the rescue. Got there to only discover that everything was perfect. They just need some of my energy to make it better. Im not exaggerating about that. *ALL SMILES*.... Then I drive across town and back and back again to make sure all merchandise is returned to all the boutiques. Day sounds like nothing could take me off of this cloud 9 with the sliver lining I'm riding right now huh? The one whose name won't be mentioned tried . I had a Lunch date from Hell happened. This guy I met a while back has literally been callin me for weeks now. I mean everyday. Most days I don't respond or answer his calls. But Last night I answered. Immediately he got on my last nerver. Overly persistant. We met for lunch and I was looking for a time waster til my next appointment. I found it. Can't get back that hour. Glory still not stolen. Went to a Fitting for 7 models for the Red Pump Affair that Kontrol Magazine is hosting Saturday. Then the models didn't show up because of lack of communication on the casting director part. All is still good. I got to see these SUPA DUPA FLY earrings that I must have. Of cours I can't cause Im broke. You won't belive what happens Next. Did you say someone came in the shop and Love them too... That is exactly what happend AND she bought them while I watched. I could have fainted....My Glory is still entacted...My boss calls me with a melt down moment. I keep a cool head and put on my problem solving cape. Tamura save the Evening. I found a DJ for the event, Picked out jewlery that will be rifled off. Reschedule the model fitting. Finished my Concept Board for the next shoot on Thursday. That was my Day..I did it all with my head held high, my wisdom cap on with bobby pins so it wouldn't move and HIGH HEEL shoes on my feet. I was Poppin My Collar all day...#fashionablylproductive.
Love,
Aquelle
Love,
Aquelle
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