I have been told that I have a very calming spirit. I help some people to relax. I'm very easy to talk to. I know how to have enjoyable comfortable silences . I say "REALLY???" How can I do all of that when my mind never rest. Even when I sleep I'm still thinking either about that person I'm sleeping with or what is on my agenda for the next day. I am mentally tired. I want to rest my mind for only a little while. I want to not be able to think about nothing with out having to go meet my maker. I want to lose control of my mind. I have been in complete mental turmoil all of my adult life. I remember when times where a little simpler and even then I made them difficult because I over think everything. I was told that blogging would be therapeutic for me because it will allow all of these crazy thoughts, ideas, and visions to leave my mind. I want some peace of mind. So I have FIGURED IT OUT...... In true Aquelle fashion of course. I'M GOING TO LEARN TO MEDIATE AND START BACK RUNNING. which brings me to my Lifetime Physical goal.... I wanted to find a way to be healthy without having to run 5miles a day. Funny thing is I am a runner. That is not me Living my Truth. Truth is...I was happiest when I was running and exercising on a daily basis and eating right. I wasn't as stressed out because I had a release. See I'm a distant runner and was pretty damn good at it to. I ran cross country and Track in high school. I enjoyed running thru the woods , breathing in the fresh air and hearing the rhythm of my feet hitting the earth. Wonderful feeling. Of course I got burned out from running. Then life for me happened. I forgot how good I felt when I ran. Oh, Let me mention how AWESOME my body looked. I don't have a bad body now but if I started running again SMH....of course that's just a plus but my quest is to make me more beautiful on the inside. I must find some sort of balance. I'm going to start walking first and I'm going to enter in the peachtree road race..I'm going to walk it this year but I'm going to run it Next year. I have 3 friends that does the Aids walk every year so I'm going to do that too.
In my truth...I am a Knowledge seeker so I must exercise my mind. But first I must unclutter it. So I can allow God to rush in . I did some research on mediation...of course you probably knew that already. there are many different forms of meditation. breathing meditation seems to be the easiest way to start. It helps you calm the mind and develop inner peace...now they say when you do this you must find a quiet spot and sit with your back straight so you don't get sluggish or sleepy. Now breath normally through your nostril and concentrate on your breathing. now at the same time you are suppose to empty your mind....HAHAHA...emptying my mind is hard. But of course it says at first your mind will be busy and it may seem that the meditation is making your mind busier than normal. In reality it just making you realize how busy your mind really is. to focus on breathing your mind is going to wonder but that's cool. just when it does bring you focus back on the breathing until your mind settles. of course you might not get this the 1st time. but if you keep mediating you will learn to calm the mind and be more at peace. More able to hear God speak to you. That is my ultimate goal is to be able to hear the direction I need to be going in my life. I got my quiet spot and blanket ( thank god it's getting warmer).I'm Ready to Relax, Relate and Release....
Love,
Aquelle
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