I have been told that I have a very calming spirit. I help some people to relax. I'm very easy to talk to. I know how to have enjoyable comfortable silences . I say "REALLY???" How can I do all of that when my mind never rest. Even when I sleep I'm still thinking either about that person I'm sleeping with or what is on my agenda for the next day. I am mentally tired. I want to rest my mind for only a little while. I want to not be able to think about nothing with out having to go meet my maker. I want to lose control of my mind. I have been in complete mental turmoil all of my adult life. I remember when times where a little simpler and even then I made them difficult because I over think everything. I was told that blogging would be therapeutic for me because it will allow all of these crazy thoughts, ideas, and visions to leave my mind. I want some peace of mind. So I have FIGURED IT OUT...... In true Aquelle fashion of course. I'M GOING TO LEARN TO MEDIATE AND START BACK RUNNING. which brings me to my Lifetime Physical goal.... I wanted to find a way to be healthy without having to run 5miles a day. Funny thing is I am a runner. That is not me Living my Truth. Truth is...I was happiest when I was running and exercising on a daily basis and eating right. I wasn't as stressed out because I had a release. See I'm a distant runner and was pretty damn good at it to. I ran cross country and Track in high school. I enjoyed running thru the woods , breathing in the fresh air and hearing the rhythm of my feet hitting the earth. Wonderful feeling. Of course I got burned out from running. Then life for me happened. I forgot how good I felt when I ran. Oh, Let me mention how AWESOME my body looked. I don't have a bad body now but if I started running again SMH....of course that's just a plus but my quest is to make me more beautiful on the inside. I must find some sort of balance. I'm going to start walking first and I'm going to enter in the peachtree road race..I'm going to walk it this year but I'm going to run it Next year. I have 3 friends that does the Aids walk every year so I'm going to do that too.
In my truth...I am a Knowledge seeker so I must exercise my mind. But first I must unclutter it. So I can allow God to rush in . I did some research on mediation...of course you probably knew that already. there are many different forms of meditation. breathing meditation seems to be the easiest way to start. It helps you calm the mind and develop inner peace...now they say when you do this you must find a quiet spot and sit with your back straight so you don't get sluggish or sleepy. Now breath normally through your nostril and concentrate on your breathing. now at the same time you are suppose to empty your mind....HAHAHA...emptying my mind is hard. But of course it says at first your mind will be busy and it may seem that the meditation is making your mind busier than normal. In reality it just making you realize how busy your mind really is. to focus on breathing your mind is going to wonder but that's cool. just when it does bring you focus back on the breathing until your mind settles. of course you might not get this the 1st time. but if you keep mediating you will learn to calm the mind and be more at peace. More able to hear God speak to you. That is my ultimate goal is to be able to hear the direction I need to be going in my life. I got my quiet spot and blanket ( thank god it's getting warmer).I'm Ready to Relax, Relate and Release....
Love,
Aquelle
Monday, February 28, 2011
Friday, February 18, 2011
COMPLETE.......
My brothers fiance ask a question today. Can you really ever feel "COMPLETE"? Good soul searching question huh? I think you can if you do want you where put on Earth to do. I asked myself what is complete? Of course you know I looked it up. Complete to me is having all of the required characteristic or skills. There was a time in my life where I actually thought that I was complete ready to take on the world and make a mark on MY world. ( Right out of highschool..lol ) Man O Man was I wrong. I didn't even make a dent in it. I was chasing my tail and never getting no where. I took on big responsibilities that I wasn't ready for such as: Living on my own, hanging out all hours of the night, working in a dead in job, Fast Money, having Kids, getting married. Basicly, doing to much of what I wanted to do. Having no type of directions, discipline or Care for myself. It wasn't until sometime Last year that I really started to question My purpose for existing. It has taken me almost a year to Completely understand just who I am. I get it now! The thing is God has put me here to WORK!!!! and once your work is done then your life will be COMPLETE.
I read Matthew 24: 36-51. The Day and Hour Unknown. it talks about how you will not know when the Lord will come to earth and get his people. But you better rest assure that he is coming. You and your homeboy, girl, could be chilling watching TV and the Lord will enter your home like a thief in the night and come get ONE of you. The only way he will get both is if you are ready and you have to be a good and faithful servant. So in order to be received you have to put in WORK. It's time to clock in. You must plan to Succeed in everything you do. Write it down, Scratch it out, think it out, write it down again. In other words you have to put your thoughts to work too. it not always about the physical work. It's the mental work that is the most challenging. The real battle for good and evil is all in your head. Did you know that?
So with the question of today. I discovered what my Lifetime Spiritual Goal is. It's to seek God in my Every second time on this earth. Listen out for his voice and guidance. Give my Whole Heart to God. Believe in the things that I can not see more than the things I can. Help others to understand how truly awesome and amazing the God I serve is whenever possible. SHARE my testimony with anyone who is willing to listen. Be available to be A MIRACLE. Use the Power that was giving to me .
Of course you know I just made the enemy very mad. but I don't care. I have been competitive all my life and faced alot of challenges along the way. Some I lost and Some I won. That is what keeps me fighting strong. I also think that comes with being able to say in the end I LIVED A FULL AND COMPLETE LIFE!
Love,
Aquelle
I read Matthew 24: 36-51. The Day and Hour Unknown. it talks about how you will not know when the Lord will come to earth and get his people. But you better rest assure that he is coming. You and your homeboy, girl, could be chilling watching TV and the Lord will enter your home like a thief in the night and come get ONE of you. The only way he will get both is if you are ready and you have to be a good and faithful servant. So in order to be received you have to put in WORK. It's time to clock in. You must plan to Succeed in everything you do. Write it down, Scratch it out, think it out, write it down again. In other words you have to put your thoughts to work too. it not always about the physical work. It's the mental work that is the most challenging. The real battle for good and evil is all in your head. Did you know that?
So with the question of today. I discovered what my Lifetime Spiritual Goal is. It's to seek God in my Every second time on this earth. Listen out for his voice and guidance. Give my Whole Heart to God. Believe in the things that I can not see more than the things I can. Help others to understand how truly awesome and amazing the God I serve is whenever possible. SHARE my testimony with anyone who is willing to listen. Be available to be A MIRACLE. Use the Power that was giving to me .
Of course you know I just made the enemy very mad. but I don't care. I have been competitive all my life and faced alot of challenges along the way. Some I lost and Some I won. That is what keeps me fighting strong. I also think that comes with being able to say in the end I LIVED A FULL AND COMPLETE LIFE!
Love,
Aquelle
Monday, February 14, 2011
Lesson Learned!!!!!
Have you ever been to Jail? Have you ever been evicted from your home? Have you ever bounced a check to keep your lights on? Have you ever spent time with someone and you should have been spending it at home? Have you ever had a opportunity to work with people who have less than you and didn't? Have you ever spent more money than you planned for at Walmart? If you have answered Yes, to any of these questions then you are not alone. Cause I have done all of those things. Looking back on it. It doesn't make me feel good. In fact it makes me feel Irresponsible.
Today I thought about all of the things that made me feel like that and the list was actually longer. I am ashamed at a lot of the things that I have done in my life. Well, I am Glad to say LESSON LEARNED....
I got up and set out to make my day as productive and rewarding as possible. I have been driving with out a license for awhile now. I even have to do community service, pay a fine and go see a probation officer for it. I still was driving around without one. 1. because i didn't have the funds to pay the fine. 2. because I felt like I will get to it. 3. as long as my tag is good and I have insurance I will be alright. Boy, was I wrong. It is nerve racking to drive. Every time I see the police I start to sweat and my heart is pounding. Scared to really drive at night cause you can't see the police get behind you. God forbid that your tail light might just decided to blow while your driving...SMH...So I did what any GROWN WOMAN would do in a situation like this. I got my Ass out of bed this morning and went and stood in line for 3hrs to pay my fine and 2hrs to get my license. LESSON LEARNED!!!!
As I was standing in line and looking around at the men and women in the place. I realized that it is a lot of people like me who get stuck in Life. People get so caught up in the right now.They don't realize that life is more than a good weave, some hot shoes, What party or hot spot to go to or where they can find some weed (another topic on another day). I use to be in that world. I decided one day and it wasn't over night. That I didn't want that anymore. I still fall short some times. I still want my weave and hot pair of shoes. But I have come to realize that it take Work, Scarafice and Planning to live the life that God has given me. I started to think about the Goals I plan on making my reality, I came up with 10 areas that I want to focus on. I also thought of some questions that would help me to figure out how to set realistic goals. I call them Life Goals. I put them in order of importance to me.Notice how I put Romance last. I did that on purpose becasue I figured it out. In order to have a lasting Romantic relationship with anyone you must first get your priorioties together. Aquelle is Growing up...:))
My Life Goals:
HAPPY LOVE DAY!!!
Love,
Aquelle
Today I thought about all of the things that made me feel like that and the list was actually longer. I am ashamed at a lot of the things that I have done in my life. Well, I am Glad to say LESSON LEARNED....
I got up and set out to make my day as productive and rewarding as possible. I have been driving with out a license for awhile now. I even have to do community service, pay a fine and go see a probation officer for it. I still was driving around without one. 1. because i didn't have the funds to pay the fine. 2. because I felt like I will get to it. 3. as long as my tag is good and I have insurance I will be alright. Boy, was I wrong. It is nerve racking to drive. Every time I see the police I start to sweat and my heart is pounding. Scared to really drive at night cause you can't see the police get behind you. God forbid that your tail light might just decided to blow while your driving...SMH...So I did what any GROWN WOMAN would do in a situation like this. I got my Ass out of bed this morning and went and stood in line for 3hrs to pay my fine and 2hrs to get my license. LESSON LEARNED!!!!
As I was standing in line and looking around at the men and women in the place. I realized that it is a lot of people like me who get stuck in Life. People get so caught up in the right now.They don't realize that life is more than a good weave, some hot shoes, What party or hot spot to go to or where they can find some weed (another topic on another day). I use to be in that world. I decided one day and it wasn't over night. That I didn't want that anymore. I still fall short some times. I still want my weave and hot pair of shoes. But I have come to realize that it take Work, Scarafice and Planning to live the life that God has given me. I started to think about the Goals I plan on making my reality, I came up with 10 areas that I want to focus on. I also thought of some questions that would help me to figure out how to set realistic goals. I call them Life Goals. I put them in order of importance to me.Notice how I put Romance last. I did that on purpose becasue I figured it out. In order to have a lasting Romantic relationship with anyone you must first get your priorioties together. Aquelle is Growing up...:))
My Life Goals:
- SPIRITUAL
- FAMILY
- FINANCIAL
- CAREER
- EDUCATION
- ATTITUDE
- PHYSICAL
- PUBLIC SERVICE
- ARTISTIC
- PLEASURE/ROMANCE
HAPPY LOVE DAY!!!
Love,
Aquelle
Sunday, February 13, 2011
A FRESH START!!1
Hello,
I would like to take a minute to introduce myself. My name is Aquelle, I'm 35 yrs old. I have 2 children.I'm a single mother trying to find my place in this life. I have owned my own business and it failed within 3years. I have lived in countless places all over the metro area. I have also lost a few places along the way. I'm recently divorced. I have been to 3 colleges and never finished. I have always been very opinonated, So since I always have ideas and thoughts running through my mind at all times. I figured I would blog them . I have never written a blog or even responded to one. what made me start this blog you ask? A friend of mine told me that I was powerful. I never thought of myself as being powerful until Last week. I thought about that power that I have over people. Some are my friends but most are strangers that I meet here and there. I always mange to strike up conversations about anything from God to Politics. I want to use my life and the experiences to help some one see their way through the same darkness I been through.I always been the type of person to have Dreams and Ideas. But I wasn't the type to actually execute them and follow thru. I always wanted to be in a better place and live comfortably. I wanted to have nice things. Have financial freedom. Direction and Discipline is where I fall short. That is going to change TODAY!!!! I am on a road to self discovery. I am striving to become a better me for myself and for my kids. In this journey I want to ask that you follow me and join me to help empower myself as well as you. In this journey of self discovery I plan on building a strong foundation for my future. Sharing whatever knowledge I learn along the way.. I read a post by my cousin on facebook. He was talking about his 5yr plan and how he is four years in and he will be on his way to finishing his 5yr plan in one year. That got me to thinking.... WHERE DO YOU SEE YOURSELF IN 5 YEARS?????
In Ecclesiastes 3. It talk about there is a TIME for everything and a season for activity under heaven. So my TIME is now and I challenge my self as well as others to Get a Fresh Start in this PURPOSE DRIVIN LIFE. Tomorrow I will post a brief summary about where I see myself in five years. I will also blog about my personal self discoveries on things I need to change in order to reach my reality. All advice and critiques are very much welcomed.
I hope that I have planted a seed in you. Just as my Friend has planted one in me. Lets cultivated and nurture our seed together.
Love,
Aquelle
I would like to take a minute to introduce myself. My name is Aquelle, I'm 35 yrs old. I have 2 children.I'm a single mother trying to find my place in this life. I have owned my own business and it failed within 3years. I have lived in countless places all over the metro area. I have also lost a few places along the way. I'm recently divorced. I have been to 3 colleges and never finished. I have always been very opinonated, So since I always have ideas and thoughts running through my mind at all times. I figured I would blog them . I have never written a blog or even responded to one. what made me start this blog you ask? A friend of mine told me that I was powerful. I never thought of myself as being powerful until Last week. I thought about that power that I have over people. Some are my friends but most are strangers that I meet here and there. I always mange to strike up conversations about anything from God to Politics. I want to use my life and the experiences to help some one see their way through the same darkness I been through.I always been the type of person to have Dreams and Ideas. But I wasn't the type to actually execute them and follow thru. I always wanted to be in a better place and live comfortably. I wanted to have nice things. Have financial freedom. Direction and Discipline is where I fall short. That is going to change TODAY!!!! I am on a road to self discovery. I am striving to become a better me for myself and for my kids. In this journey I want to ask that you follow me and join me to help empower myself as well as you. In this journey of self discovery I plan on building a strong foundation for my future. Sharing whatever knowledge I learn along the way.. I read a post by my cousin on facebook. He was talking about his 5yr plan and how he is four years in and he will be on his way to finishing his 5yr plan in one year. That got me to thinking.... WHERE DO YOU SEE YOURSELF IN 5 YEARS?????
In Ecclesiastes 3. It talk about there is a TIME for everything and a season for activity under heaven. So my TIME is now and I challenge my self as well as others to Get a Fresh Start in this PURPOSE DRIVIN LIFE. Tomorrow I will post a brief summary about where I see myself in five years. I will also blog about my personal self discoveries on things I need to change in order to reach my reality. All advice and critiques are very much welcomed.
I hope that I have planted a seed in you. Just as my Friend has planted one in me. Lets cultivated and nurture our seed together.
Love,
Aquelle
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